Tuesday, 21 December 2010

Terlerai sudah kekusutan yg berlaku

Hati ini gembira kerana kesilapan yg dilakukan bukan dari hatinya yg sebenar...

Tapi aku sedikit terkilan...

Kenapa pada malam itu juga dia tidak mahu terus terang? 
Kenapa mesti tengok aku emo marah2 dan benci padanya? 
Kenapa engkau tak mahu terangkan? 
Apa susahkah setiap perkataan yg ingin dituturkan? 
Adakah aku terlalu garang / tegas pabila bersamamu? 

Terlalu banyak persoalan yg bermain di fikiran ku tatkala ini... Setelah kau memenuhi kehendak yg ku inginkan dan yg ku perlukan... baru kau mahu ceritakan kisah yg sebenar... Aku keliru... Kenapa kau masih ingin menyembunyikan masalah dlm dirimu sendirian sedangkan kau sendiri yg cakap jangan pendam, tak baik untuk kesihatan diri... Lama-kelamaan akan memakan hati sendiri.. Aku masih ingat lagi kata2 mu itu... Tapi kini...kau yg cuba menyembunyikan hal yg ebenar tanpa memberitahuku... 

Sudah acap kali ku pinta... baru kini kau mengerti dan memberitahu ku tentang itu... Kenapa? Kenapa?

I: Salam...I hope u fine today. I'll just want to ask u some question about yesterday. I really sad what u've
   done to me... I was shocked and could not imagine that you can do to me. Erm...
U: Wsslam... Sorry syg... I think u have big trouble mistake about the incident.. Btw, when I call u and I want 
    u to know about "my bag" is in ur car.. And I really need the bag and hurry to do job with friend.. Then, 
    my friend told me that u r so late... "He took my handphone and angry to u... For little time, u lost in a
    way...We need hurry okay... Don't make me angry... I do not like u f**ker... Idiot!" say my friend to u.. I 
    was shocked and dont know how could I do...
I: What?? Ur friend or urs?? Tell me the truth...
U: Really dear... I'm not doing the bad mistake for my beloved and I dont think to do like that... Then, he just 
    talk to me... "Leave her... U'll find any special friend better than her... I dont like her.."
I: Why he talk like that? And why not u fight him to respect me as ur bf...
U: Sorry dear...I always fight him along the journey in car... And, i really sorry for that... I'm promise that 
    when I can't do it again... I will survey who are doing the bad job...
I: Okay...if u say like that... I accepted it...!! And, I want u to know that, I hope u change ur attitude and dont 
   do it again... And make sure ur phone is urs not ur friend...U must assertive and dont give something that urs 
   to the others... Appreciate our belongings...
U: Okay dear... Erm... I'm so sleepy dearr.... 
I: Erm....good nite...luv u... Enjoy ur sleeping toninght and think about what I have said... 

Terlerai sudah kekusutan yg bersarang dalam ingatan kepala ku ini... Aku kini mengerti dan lebih mengerti apa  yg dipendamnya selama ini... Aku berharap sangat yg dia sudah melakukan satu perubahan yg baik buat diri ku yg disayanginya.... Dan, aku juga akan cuba buang segala yg keruh dan ambil yg jernih... 

Sekian sahaja coretan pada malam ini...
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